We'll both be someone more than playmates,
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allrights, i felt that this few days, i'm so easily agitated. and i'm scolding vulgur words all the way. i feel that i'm changing. i feel that i'm becoming who i am last year when i lost yap.let's start from yesterday huh. (:
woke up. sore throat pain like fuck. hurhur. but still went to school, because all my sweeties are bound to make me smile! (:
(2periods of chinese.) was doing some chinese paper thing. and listening to songs. (:
(geography.) got scolded by her again. arghs. but her words seemed to hit hard on me. i dont know.
(2 periods of physics.) he is back to who he is.
recess, saw her again/. -_-
(2 periods of english.) some oral preparation stuffs, and the only thing i can say is CHILDISH. no other comments.
(2 periods of maths.) maths sum again.
after school went hougang mall with siti, charlene, amanda&chengcheng. the few of them really made my day okies. (:
long-john-ed.
and charlene&amanda accompanied me&chengcheng to the polyclinic for the doctor. and some fucking ugly couple scolded us jiaobin. like what the fuck. where in the world did i make until you not happy with me. your own stead also one jiaobin one. still come scold us. you think your stead chiobu mehs? she is then the real fuckface.
forget it. we were cursing him all the way.
was waiting to collect our medicine when he&his stead walked down.
and he sat next to me. by one seat apart. -_- i got real angry. and just slammed the whole physics book on the chair when i went to collect my medicine. arghs.
when leaving, scolded him jiaobin. and walk off. then he said bye or something. then cheng said bye jiaobin. then he scolded some cb lanjiao or something. TOTAL TURN-OFF. arghs.
went home change and went for tuition.
pubbing with mum&dad after that at dad's pub. drank a new drink they recommanded. drink alrdy head damm pain. arghs.
today had 2.4km run. dragged myself out of bed. just for that run. arghs.
and we were like the only class running last.
not bad. knee was damm pain when i finished.
genting later. gonna be back tmr. (:
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although you are still calling me everynight to chat.
most of the time we are not talking.
my tears have all dried up alrdy.
doing so much for you, you cant seemed to be touched.
and you still wanted her.
she is still in your heart.
it's really hurting me.
the blood that dripped,
the tears that i've shed.
it's torturing.
i thought you would wish me goodluck for that 2.4 today.
you dint.
your care&concern is gone.
go after her, just go after her.
forget me.
dont say you dont want,
just forget me.
you dont have to call me everynight.
call her, talk to her.
let your feelings for her be 100%.
actually, lastnight&this morning, i'm still deciding whether to go for the genting trip.
but i finally decided to go, know why?
you've changed. totally changed.
i'm stil crying every single night for you, if you dont know.
像两首节拍不同的歌
却又同时被爱情合奏
旋律勉强着
愉快不能够假装快乐
你心中有宽阔的天空
空气还稀薄
曾经等待因为会改变什么
你总会属于我
但是最后时间证明了
你只喜欢我
你说我
比较像你的好朋友
只是不小心
拥抱着
你道歉你难过
于是我给你笑容
谁在乎我的心
还会不会寂寞
如果爱情是五线谱
我只希望用全音符
吟唱出爱上你
那完整的幸福
当你的心没有耳朵
即使我为你唱着歌
你也只看见我哭了
你说我比较像你的好朋友
只是不小心拥抱着
你道歉你难过
于是我给你笑容
谁在乎我的心
还会不会寂寞
曾经因为等待会改变什么
你总会属于我
但是最后时间证明了
你只喜欢我
你说我比较像你的好朋友
只是不小心拥抱着
你道歉你难过于是我给你笑容
谁在乎我的心ho 还会不会寂寞
你说我是你最好的朋友
却不应该再拥抱
着你退缩你冷漠
于是我放开双手
不在乎我的心会永远的寂寞
i'll try my best to let you go.
and wait for the day that we will be together.
i'll wait.
but right now,
i need to learn how to stop tearing.
tears can fall anywhere, at any point of the day.
just because of you.
why are you still doing this?
i used to be afraid of pain, very very afraid.
even if it is just a small cut, i would freak out.
but now, i can just use my hand, hit against the wall and let the blood flow.
very soon, i will leave the world. very very soon.
it's too hurting for me to be here anymore.
♥MuchLoved.