Th' Lady ,

Joey , fifteen.
Single yet Unavailable.(:

Spoken ;

Baby, I swear you're all that I ever need.

Love doesn't need any judgement,
cause if you judge someone,
you won't have th time t love them.

Girls can do things I can't do,
Girls can give you memories I can't give,
but no girls can do th things I can do, I swear.
And definitely my love for you will never lose t any other girls out there.

Wishes ,

My first Tatto at th back my hip.
Never, never t quarrel with Love again. ):
New handphone.
Big big looney tunes toys.
Elmo Balloon.
TinyTiny Elmo toys.
Red roses.
Another day out with Love.
Movie outing with Love.
Ear piercings.
Black Cardigan.
Slim down.
Heels for Myking&I outing.
Tapered Jeans.

Chats,



Credits,

Designer ; Joey. (:
Music ; Only reminds me of you - MYMP.

Stories,

Tuesday, April 17, 2007

We'll both be someone more than playmates,

allrights, today is a super bad day. and it's real bad.

cried for a fucking 4times today. the first thing when i woke up this morning, on the way to school in dad's car, during chinese lesson & while walking home. and i nearly cried in maths class too. and i guess more are to come for the rest of the day. his that msg is too hurting. too too hurting.

and i guess i need to emphasize on it once again.
i wrote all this stuffs in my blog was because there's no one who really understands me. and it is not for you to get troubled about. although i know you reads my blog, but i still chose to post about all the feelings that i'm having now. it is for you to read. and for you to understand me. and i said before, i dont need you to apologize. i dont want you to feel guilty. it makes no sense, cause seeing you in that way doesnt makes me feel better as well.

do you know that your that msg hit right through my heart this morning when i saw it? and tears immediately started rolling down? you wont blame me if i give up right? then i tell you, i would blame myself for it. what i did my best? what did i do? i just did what i think is right. you told me if i give up and find my happiness, you would send me your blessings. then i'm here to tell you. my happiness is you.

i had no one to tell to. i can only let the tears flow. in fact, the cut i got yesterday, i'm pretty happy with that cut, seeing the blood flow. nowadays i dont have the courage to take the penknife and cut it through. and that cut, did gives me a pain that is exactly happening to my heart. but now, i guess i'm not afraid of anything anymore.

chengcheng told me, you must have made up your mind on who's in your heart more. that's why you are sending me such a msg. if it's true, i would kindly rather you tell me. rather then doing this.

48days, 48days of waiting. you are asking me to give up just like that? sorry, i can't do it. i thought you could be the next to replace yap, the one to replace his cares and concerns. the one to replace his EVERYTHING in my heart. but it seemed not the case.

ask me who's my happiness. i would say all my happiness come from you.

i'm really hurt to see your that msg.
and i apologize for crying for so many times today.
i'm just a crybaby who breaks her promises.
i'm sorry, i really really am.

♥MuchLoved.