Th' Lady ,

Joey , fifteen.
Single yet Unavailable.(:

Spoken ;

Baby, I swear you're all that I ever need.

Love doesn't need any judgement,
cause if you judge someone,
you won't have th time t love them.

Girls can do things I can't do,
Girls can give you memories I can't give,
but no girls can do th things I can do, I swear.
And definitely my love for you will never lose t any other girls out there.

Wishes ,

My first Tatto at th back my hip.
Never, never t quarrel with Love again. ):
New handphone.
Big big looney tunes toys.
Elmo Balloon.
TinyTiny Elmo toys.
Red roses.
Another day out with Love.
Movie outing with Love.
Ear piercings.
Black Cardigan.
Slim down.
Heels for Myking&I outing.
Tapered Jeans.

Chats,



Credits,

Designer ; Joey. (:
Music ; Only reminds me of you - MYMP.

Stories,

Sunday, April 08, 2007

We'll both be someone more than playmates,

allrights. many many many things happened last night. and i guess, i've hurt him. hur.
and the only thing i can say to him is ;
i know my answer i gave you lastnight was hurting. i admit. because i've gone through that before. but i just don't wish to lie to you, cause i love the guy i am now loving alot. even lastnight when i told you the truth, you told me you would wait. and that made me felt blessed. but things are changing alrdy. because you no longer contact me again ever since lastnight. and i guess it's no use if i've accepted you, but the one in my heart is not you. so i'd rather hurt you now, better then if you found out the truth. thanks for all the care&concern you gave, you made me felt blessed, seriously. and i'm just gonna tell you something kae. if fate ever allows that, it will brings us together. (:

gonna stay at home the whole day i guess. dad's sleeping. mum's out. sister's out swimming. hurhur.

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last night when you din call.
the heart got flustered once again;
then i saw the tag you tagged.
i don't need you to apologize,
i don't need you to get troubled.
therefore, i sent the msg to you :
just saw the tag you tagged. and i guess i need to clear off all the doubts here i guess. firstly, i'm posting all those things on my blog was because there's no one to tell how i was feeling now. and what i wrote on the blog was not to add on to your troubles. seeing you troubled doesnt gets me anywhere either. i don't want you to feel guilty, neither do i want you to apologize. i really don't want my existence to be a burden to you. if my existence and the things i blogged about is adding to the troubles for you, then i apologize here. i can't lose you, you knew that. and even if one day you tel me that your answer is not me, i guess i will learn to accept it, because loving someone means to see that someone being happy. i just hope you understand. sorry.
called and we chatted.
and you tell me, sometimes you find me very poor thing.
i mean seriously, what's the use.
i'm not trying to scold you here though.
i just don't understand,
i thought after sending the msg you would understand.
but i guess, you don't.
the old joey is gone,
and she won't be back again. but who cares and who understands.
sometimes i thought, whether letting you go and be with melissa would be a better choice.
lettng you be with melissa, would you be happier.
because i somehow felt the love you had for her was deeper.
actually sometimes, you just need to tell me what to do.
and i'll do it.
melissa is not affected, she is still who she is.
but i am, i am just defeated.
you told me to have confidence in myself. it's not that i don't want to have it.
everytime i wake up in the morning, i told myself.
i must not let anything affect my mood today.
but what always ends the day is the truth, that got me all troubled.
i've done all that i should have done.
but fate isnt helping me either.
because heaven doesnt shows you what i have done for you.
sometimes, i ask myself,
whether doing all this is worth is anot.
because i guess you can't see the sacrifices i've made.
but the answer that i've always concluded is that it's all worth it.
and i've told you before, what can really make the old joey back.
what can really make the joey who's always joking around.
is to have you by my side.
but saying all this, does it even has any use.
you told me to forget about all the unhappy moments,
yet i can only tell you.
all the things that have happened in the past one month,
be it good or bad.
are what kept me going till now.
is your love for melissa really that deep?
if it is, just tell me. i'll learn to let you go.
you told me to believe your poker cards,
then i ask you, when will it come true?
i don't know.
others are so fortunate, why can't i?
my tears have all dried up. i couldnt cry anymore.
i thought after sending you that msg, you would understand.
every single day, i'm waiting for you to make up your mind.
yet every single day, i would have to end my day with sorrows.
just tell me what's on your mind will you.
sometimes i just wanna say everything.
but hearing you on the other line, watching tv, playing maple.
then i will say to myself, let's just forget it. another day then.
and now, i'm just waiting for you to make up your mind.
if your love for melissa is deeper than mine,
tell me. i'll let you go.
it's too hurting for me to know that,
the guy i like is loving another girl at the same point of time.

- my heart is aching once again.

♥MuchLoved.