2nd post of the day.
wells, sometimes, i envied those people who have steads. they sometime can just know that person for a few days. and they can stead alrdy. and they are very very sweet.
i want my sweet everlasting love to come soon.
ohyahs, ah-gong asked me what i wanted for my birthday present the other day. LOL, then i told him i wanted nothing. cause the thing that i really wanted was something that no one could give.
even though i know that birthday wish of mine will not come true, but i still chose to believe it. silly me, aint it? that's the way i am.
the song 好朋友 best explains my feelings now.
cause yesterday, he said that i am his bestfriend, and that he doesnt wants to lose me this bestfriend.
i was heartbroken though, but what can i do?
i felt completely hopeless.
曾经等待因为会改变什么
你总会属于我
但是最后时间证明了
你只喜欢我
你说我比较像
你的好朋友
只是不小心拥抱着
你道歉
你难过
于是我给你笑容
谁在乎我的心
还会不会寂寞
i'm barely hanging on-
this feeling is something that i cant explain.
it's choking me.
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i never wanted this sort of relationship between us to end.
i thought we could really become a pair.
i thought you understand me as well as i understand you.
everytime, every single time, the phone rings.
i was expecting to see your house number to be there.
i was expecting to receive your msg every time when the phone rings.
because, you've become a part of me.
and i'm willing to do anything just to be your everything.
every single thing i do,
every single thing i see,
every single thing i hear,
there's the YOU in all of them.
i teared for the slightest thing.
i get angry for the slightest thing.
i get jealous when i see you talking to girls.
but there's nothing i can do.
sometimes, i hear you crying on the other line,
i felt so hopeless.
and at times, i would cry after i put down the phone,
because i felt useless for not being able to comfort you when you are tearing.
nowadays, everytime you called.
i would just smile like i never used to.
but,
when you told me you're gonna call me back 1min later.
the smile is gone.
it just completely fade as the time gets longer.
although i know you are giving the both of us up,
but i still chose to hang on,
because,
i believe that whatever i do.
will somehow be able to move you.
my family all treats you as though you are mine,
they are always mentioning you.
which is something that they have not done before.
but whenever they say,
i just could give back a smile.
and told them, it's not true. it isnt going to happen either.
i always tell myself to let go.
i always tell myself i can do it.
but later in the night, i would just realise,
i'm just not strong enough.
i needed you.
you're the reason why i breathe.
i wanna be your girlfriend.
i wanna be the one you are willing to spend the rest of your life with.
i want you to be my boyfriend,
the one who would greet me every morning with a smile.
but, it is just not possible -