i'm not really in the mood to blog now. so i'll just sum up the day.
school was just as slack today.
heavy rain, and i mean super.
therefore, super cold. yucks.
and i slept for 1hour straight in the morning.
after school, waited for xiaobian to finish her photo taking.
then off to bugis.
bought the red bag i always wanted.
wanted to shop for cheng's birthday present , but then. i realise nothing suits her there.
so i guess i'm getting her a belated one.
piano-ed. and then to kovan to get mum's diamond pendant changed.
fuck.
things are coming back into my mind once again -
and i'm confused once again.
forgetting someone is hard , it really is.
the feeling's choking me.
but i have to do it somehow.
it's choking me up, it really is.
someone mentioned your name in class today.
and somehow, the heart sank.
and i realise, all along, i've been lying to myself all along.
because you are still living in me.
but we just ended this way, we just ended.
you are calling some others.
and trust me to be waiting for you to call for the whole of lastnight.
i've finally brought myself to delete off that ringtone for your contact.
it's my first step.
but , you msges are still there, in my phone.
i just cant bear to delete them all.
the heart is seriously aching.
but i know, we just somehow ended in a way i dont want it to end.
i'm sorry ,
but i just cant seem to forget you.