why must you sound as though it's my fault.?
okays, so my mood now is bad. so people, better dont provoke me because you dont know what might happen. fcuk.
school today was just as slack as usual.
i can't really remember what happened in school today.
but i just know.
we had 2periods away from mrchang. and thus michelle, bestfriend , funghua , rachel , sharleen & me are in our CT venus drawing the designs of our class tee-shirts.
and yes, i do love BRAND NEW markers! (:
after school, went longjohn with my group of sweeties as well.
karin , phyllis , amanda , siti , charlene , sharleen , funghua and me.
yes. eating and laughing like nobody's business once again.
and thus, i'm back home.
tuition later. and i haven even completed his homework yet. i'm so gonna die. fcuk.
anyways, actually i know about it all along luhs. but i still feel that teachers shouldnt track all the student's blog and read it. it's afterall our privacy right? our personal life, our way of thinking and stuffs. it just doesnt feels right to know that your teacher is reading your blog. and keeping in update of your life, even outside. weird. but this is just my point of view luhs. yupp.
okays,
i need to vent my anger now. arghs.
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just what did i do wrong?
i can't go down and have longjohn's is it?
is it a crime to do so?
why are you staring at all my friends , including me.
ihatethis.
and somemore,
you dint even bother to send a single msg to me since like what, lastnight.
and then, today you finally send me one.
but the contents in it sucks.
it just do.
it makes me felt so disappointed.
and therefore, i think i may have to speak my point of view.
we're not staring at you for your information.
it's because your that ever so precious friend of you beside you,
was staring at us all the time.
and to put it simply,
we felt DIGUSTED.
we just merely look. and we dint stare.
believe it or not, it's just up to you.
right now, i'm trying my best to breathe without you.
know how hard is that.
it just is.
and i'm just doing so every single night,
just by tearing.
you dint even bother to at least send a msg lastnight,
you dint even call lastnight.
i was waiting for your call you know.
i am, all the way till 3.
i just felt fcuking stupid.
why must you end it this way?
forget it,
just forget it.
i still remember the firsttime, i msg you and asked you to forget me.
you said you will never ever forget me.
and you apologize so many times on the phone.
i thought we could just start all over again.
when in actual fact, it just is not fcuking happening.
ihatethiskindoflife
becauseit'swithoutyou-
fogetit-
ishouldjustletthebloodcontinuetoflow,
andthattime,iwouldbreathmylast.
andleavethisworldpeacefully.
at least for now i know,
i've loved this guy named gelvin.
at least i know,
i'm willing to do so much or him.
at least i know,
i wont have any regrets.